Half of my soul was fighting for this life at the opposite the world! How can I be calm and just crossed the arms together pretending like there is nothing happened. No, I cant. He was in big trouble now, together with his brothers. Thank Allah, they have each other. these people, memanglah buat kepala aku ni ting tong. Dia pun pandai je, diamkan saja. Bukan kata ada problem nak kasi share ke apa, okay fine. guys stuffs, he said -__-" so, mentang-mentang lah guys stuffs, then nada cakap called semalam berlagak nak man-man talk jeh. cehss, padahal kepala memang nak meletop fikir. But then, seriously kalau tak check twitter memang tak tahu apa jadi dekat dunia sana.
Decision dia nak keep that problem pun aku respect. As always Darl, you have all my support. I tak nak jadi orang yang stick dekat you masa senang je. Kita face sama-sama, combine dengan your brothers. Together we can make it, tediiaaaa ayat mau penampang sedas. :P Enough for that problem.
Alhamdulillah, semalam mampu pergi masjid untuk baca yaasin sambut nisfu Syaa'ban and hari ni pun puasa. Tahun lepas tak sedar pun nisfu,tau-tau pun bila Tok Mek called tengahari tanya puasa ke tak. SIGH. rugi satu tahun. Lagi 2 minggu je lagi pun nak puasa, sebab tu dok harap ibadah tahun ni lagi humble and istiqamah dari tahun lepas. Insyaallah. Tiba-tiba jumpa balik video lama waktu kemas folder hardisk, "Rasulullah SAW menangis Di Padang Mahsyar". Allahuakbar. Sedih rasanya bila bayangkan waktu dan keadaan tu. In fact, kalau diri kita sendiri, tak payah cakap umat, family pun tak tau ke mana dah masa tu. Sesungguhnya Allah itu amat mengetahui.
Then lagi, semalam bukak facebook tengok cerita pasal student Malaysia meninggal di dunia di Jordan. seorang meninggal and aku start search pasal arwah sumayyah. Ada terbaca blog seorang kenalan arwah, arwah mengucap khalimah syahadah di akhir hayatnya tanpa bantuan sesiapa. She must have special relationship with Him(her Creators), sehingga Allah memelihara dia. Al-fatihah untuk arwah Sumayyah dan takziah.
Last night, before sleep I made my own self reflection. Renung balik semua permasalahan yang menimpa diri ini, especially dugaan Islam dengan Darl, I think I've made myself clear. It's nothing compared to Rasulullah and sahabat. Since aku pun manusia biasa, tipulah kalau cakap langsung takde masalah. Tapi kalau pretend to be konkrit and natural itu normal. I hate to show the weakness point of mine. Mak Uda and few friends start to questioned me about Darl's religion. Obviously, I didn't have answer for it. Pray and istiqamah. I believe it will be the way out of Darl's issue, Insyaallah.
p/s: Darl. Be Strong. Be Strong and Be Strong. 연락해.. Cemburu akan nikmat yang diperolehi arwah Sumayyah. Ke arah itu, Insyaallah.
