TRAVELOGUE BEIJING [ PART 1 ]

Selamat entry diperam sekian bulan. Entry umrah are in waiting list. And new adventure  is coming next month. As I mentioned in the previous entry for Beijing Travelogue, my files was corrupted ㅠㅠ.  Worst case, I just realized it after return from umrah. I transferred the files from phone to Ailee a day before flew to Madinah. Still hoping 여기 저기 백업 있었어 ㅠㅠ Kenapa cuai sangat Ain?

※ Accumulated budget spend during this trip is +- is only MYR 250 only as all the foods, pocket money CNY 200, flights, visa fees and accommodation was sponsored by company. I brought MYR 500, but end up change the currency to Saudi Riyal afterwards sebab nothing best to buy in Bejing. ( Changed to Saudi Riyal because I went to perform umrah 3 weeks after the Beijing Trip ). Unlike another budget trip I used to go, I really cannot considered this as budget trip. Our hotel is quite high end and I spent the money on foods and entertainment only. 

Warning : Entry padat dengan bebelan & gambar

Nurain's thingie.
 Ya tahu bakal ditohmah masyarakat tapi  nak share jugak cute little things that I brought to Beijing.
1. PASSPORT 

Passport holder ni come with pair, which is couple thingy with Umi. And I like how Amway made the lanyard & luggage tag. Kind of useful as I used to Umrah trip as well.  ^.^

2.  ROOMMATE ( Ga Yeon C)

My Team Leader Siap recommend I buat kerja gila, which is dia suggest untuk attend Gala Dinner tak payah pakai tudung sebab katanya cute tak pakai tudung. 
apakah? Jatuh rahang kejap dengar lol

3. LANYARD AND TAG

All of us got this. One is for lanyard, one is luggage and another one is for hand carry bag

4. ALLOWANCE

All of us got this CNY  200 per person as food allowance for the free and easy schedule. Depends on how you set the budgeting lah. For me, I don't go crazy shopping during travel. The only thing I bought is Fridge magnet  and customize key-chain  to the places I went for.





5. HAND CARRY |  BACKPACK

 My friends call me bookworm. LOL. Well, I prefer the call me book freak instead. It become my habit every time I went to oversea's travel, especially to the non-Muslim countries to bring my own food. I am a picky eater in Malaysia, but when it comes to travel, my eating pattern will be simpler. As long as the food is clean, healthy and hygiene then it  good to go. 밥, 김, 김치 하고 계란만 잇어도 잘 먹는것 같아 내가. ㅋㅋㅋ So, I just prepare the novel or books( Normally I brought 2 pcs) and light snacks.


6. ITENARY

Here goes our flight and detail's trip!~~~

7. LUGGAGE

TRUST ISSUE : Half of my luggage was filled by foods, wet tissue and tissue. Normally I bought Fringe Shawl during travel caused no need to iron.

(づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ My partner and roommate for this trip is Ga Yeon C. Overprotective team leader. I was not in a good condition in Beijing due to haze and the environment. 역시 종국이랑 안 맞아다니까ㅋㅋㅋㅋ I skipped the breakfast and eat the biscuits and bread almost all the time there. The Chinese food is great and delicious but I lost my appetite due to the trust issue.  I am not trying to condemned their culture, maybe it was me who wasn't able to adapt with their environment. Out of sudden, I became the hygiene freak there. Nur Ain Maisarah Phelps is busy distributing the wet tissue while Genie busy sprayed the hand sanitize to anyone that hold the wall, stairs roll, chairs etc. I geli almost everything to the extend I rather walk or stand instead of mencangkung sebab lenguh. Even Haikal got-almost-lost-his-temper-sebab-jalan-non-stop-dari-pagi-sampai-malam. We did walk a lot in Beijing. 

16th October 2019 [ Departure to Beijing ]

So masa hari kejadian,  I spent the morning session by working from home. Pack up the luggage a night before and it was stuffed with loads ( I repeat LOADS ) of wet tissue and tissue. I am really have a trust issue with China. Despite everyone is enjoying China, well, I guest the spell was not really work on me lol. Ayah Cik bugging to me to go with him to Shanghai a few times 사양 할게 ㅋㅋㅋ Around 1.00 pm I arrived to office thought the assemble time shall be 2.00 pm. Purposely went there 1 hour earlier for solat jamak zuhur and asar. Ohh and jimat lagi duit tambang ke airport. There are for flights used to take all of us to Beijing and unfortunately we've gotten the Airasia X flight. The other 3 flights is Malaysia Airlines, Cathay Airlines, and Singapore Airlines. The best thing about our flight is direct flight flight. Cathay Airlines is the worst. They have 4 hours transit in Bangkok. Barai teruk member yang naik Cathay as upon touch down they headed straight away to Forbidden City. 
  Almost 7 hours of journey before we touched down Beijing. We are freezing cold upon arrival as the temperature is 13 degree Celsius. Check in hotel in group around 3 am. Beijing and Malaysia is having same time. Nap for 2 hours then get ready for the Forbidden City's visit!

End of Day 1!~

17th October 2019 [ Tian An Men Square & Forbidden City ]

We follow the tour guide to Tian An Men Square and Forbidden City. Mashaallah jalan dia sangat banyak menangis sis. Lucky that we got to go there during the winter season so we did not sweat too much. The temperature when we went there is around 14-16 degree which quite cold if we stay still. Since we do a lot of walking, so sikit sebanyak akan rasa panas jugak. I got less enjoy to this place because it wayyyyyyyyyyyyy to crowded and we need to walk in fast pace to catch up with the group. I consider my group is fun sebab Team Leader and manager sama gila lol. And being the only muslim and malay lady, the lads treated me well haha. Only 5 malay within our group which is me, Bat, Acap, Fakhrul, Faza and Ivan. 

First stop to Forbidden City.

.Nur Ain Maisarah Phelps has been in Tian An Men Square! It's once in a lifetime. I wouldn't never go to China again for travelling. 피해할 수있을 만금 피해할께 ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

 나 하고 가연씨

생각 보다 잘 나우네 ㅎㅎㅎ

 Selfie teruk orang belakang

$@#%^&*!

Me taking turn with Ga Yeon C to bring the umbrella as the forecast stated that will be a rain. 12 degree Celsius and rain! What else could be great than this? Most of us did not bring and it really rain! Everyone was like sticking to us sebab nak tumpang payung.

정아인 at the entrance of the Forbidden City, waiting for the passport clearance. 

♡.♡ 

Due to winter season and school holiday, this place is super duper crowded. We walk in group and I warned you, a lot of walking in Beijing. The tour guide is so passionate in telling us a story about the old china's emperor's story and the development of New China. Unfortunately, non of us who's really showing an interest. Everyone is busy taking photo's lol. 

At the end entrance of Forbidden City

아야! 춘비 안 했다 (●´з｀人´ε｀●)

자 자!!! 제대로 찍자 이번에

By the way, I am not, well not this time HAHAAHAH get pissed off because there's a lot of people. Sebab winter kot. By the way, to get yourself enter to Forbidden City, your passport is required. Don't forget to bring it as they will check it in the entrance. I don't understand the reason lol. And around the Tian An Men Square and Forbidden City, we will found a lot of people will trying their best to touch the gold door and that so called patung2 binatang kat situ then sapu-sapu dekat muka.

 -____________________-" 

As they believe it bring luck ( Seen the similar actions in Madinah as well)

 Bump into Kak Zila as we was not in the same bus and Flight.

Tengok muka takda sinyummm time ni as we are freaking tired.

After the visit completed, we went for luncheon session. Ohhh 아 참! Time expected to completed all the Tian An Men Square and Forbidden City is around 3 hours working. No fun this place sebab too crowded, seriously. And the air quality is not that healthy. After lunch, we headed back to hotel as we need to prepare for the Amway Gala dinner hosted by Amway China.

Don't ask about glass! I wore the lens that night. 

And we're ready for the party!

Telling you guys, as expected Amway! The hall setting is superb. As if I attend the KBS 연기 대상 though my acting skills is 발연기 ㅎㅎㅎ. Hall은 넘 멋있고요 역시 암웨이당! ♡

We can see laa how proud there were for their ancient history.

Dengan tahan segan posing depan pintu orang lalu-lalang tengok budak mana jakun tak stop amek gambar HAHAHAHA. Retake pulak tu sebab pegang sweater.

ㅎㅎ 정아인이다! ㅎㅎ

Me and Farida. 

Me and Kak Zila.

Xiao Jing cheche

Kak Hea

Kak Zila

T&E gang! Kak Hea, Xiao Jing and me 

(✿˶◕‿◕˶人◕ᴗ◕✿)

Back then, we left Cian Ling 언니랑 Kak Ashiah in KL. Due to some reason, they not joining us for the trip. It will so much fun if they were all here, so our gang is completed!

하나 둘씩 떨어지는 나뭇잎 

허나 어제처럼 기억이 생생해

 마치 멜로디처럼 너무 익숙해 

니가 다시 불러주면

그니깐, memories are never gone . 

Best people in Amway. 

Last group selca before everyone went to bed.

End of Day 2

Among the Beijing Trip, this is my favourite photo.

ㅃ.ㅃ 정아인 드림 ㅃ.ㅃ

I CALLED IT AS SELF RESPECT

I have been doubting to myself. To write or not to write about this. On the second thoughts, no harm done, isn't it?
To lose someone or something beyond our imagination, it does sickening me. In and out. But I believe in my creator, The Almighty. The One who is The Most Knowing. All I know that He had a reason for everything happened.  most of the time Sometimes I was wondering why the person had to leave me?
Am I not good enough?  All this while, we are indeed in a good terms. That is what exactly what I thought, 결국에 나만 혼자서 착각하는 구나
Come across to my mind, that someone is not a crap or as bad as they seem to be. It just maybe.. Maybe Allah SWT know, if we stay together the cons will be damaging us even more. That's what I keep on telling myself. Wahhh seems Nur Ain Maisarah is cool enough to accept the reality right?
Hell no. Seriously I'm telling you. I'm hurt, I am bleeding inside, I was broken into pieces. It is not right to keep yourself in a toxic situation. I let myself cried. I gave myself time to "adapting" with the new way of being alone ( Guess I am doing good than it was expected ). I let myself heal in times and I made up my mind to put an end to this.
The pros of this separation is hmmm... It wasn't easy to be thoughts into words. It might kills heart when the words was not deliver in a right manner. 
$@#%^&*!
Plot twist, staying by forced was not a good move neither. The other party is not happy ( That is considered as Premise 1). Pretending nothing nothing is happened ended up myself and my heart to be exact to be drown in a false hope ( Premise 2). Conclusion : Both party is and will not happy.

Ladies got feelings and instinct, lads. I started to have awkward feeling ever since I was returned from Beijing. I bottled it all up ( Anger, Sad, unfair etc feelings ) as I was on the trip previously and this super stupid things shall never ruined it. After that, I was able to grasp the real picture and get to know the actual situation. I tried to put a blame. My logic is if the third party has not come we shall never be like this. The thoughts is inconsistent. There are the days I was pissed off that I feel no matter how lowly the third party is "seducing" that someone, If that someone really does value me as a person, that someone shall never be shaken by anything or anyone that is coming between us. My heart screaming in silence. At this point, this is when this stuff hurts me the most, which is I was never or maybe no longer the someone's first option ( maybe I never been the first option ). Myself is telling me, to get a grip of the stand that I'm standing in my life. No point of blaming anyone in this case. It just happened, and if Allah tak izin, all these sicks things wouldn't be happened.  처음 부터 안 만났었어야되는데 분명히 뭔가 있어

Thus, I do nothing. 

I stop being clingy, I stop chasing and searching, I stop calling. I called it as a self respect. I'm disrespected myself for quite a long time and I think it is the time to respect | protect my own feelings from hurts. After all, I am granting someone's request to get over me. This is the most, at least I can do for someone that I loves unconditionally, whereby granting their wish for being free. For not having me by their side is sources of their happiness, then I choose not to be selfish.
and I let that someone left ...
Separating and walk away in our own separate path was never easy. It never will. But still a good choice rather than staying by side and kill the hearts. I wish to stay and keep on like, you know.. Working out to make this thing works. Came to realization, not all things is under our control. It hit me when I know I was no longer in that "right" to say or even asking my right to be return. Was it ever been mine? I know that I really need to let things happened as it flows, keep the faith and ask a prayer none others except to Allah SWT.
안돼는건 안돼는거야
currently, I am Re-routing the life path to the original plan. I was having my own plan previously. I'm ready to settled down by keeping the plan as a dream. Indeed I can feel like Allah has given me another paths so that I was eventually directed to the original plan.  Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah.

SEE? Allah is the best. He open the other door when the situations seems to be no way out of it. Dia tak kejam and His helps was never late. It just in time.
As I am preparing the next stage of achievement in my life, doakan ye. Moga nanti proposal untuk doctorate and scholarship dipermudahkan. This is one of my doa in Raudhah and in front of Kaabah. Insyaallah, Allah will make a way for me.
영국이나 한국이나 상관 없어 지금. 합격 하고 장학금만 잡으면 돼 ㅋㅋ

TRAVELOGUE BEIJING [ TEASER ]

Awake for the sake of supporting the year-end-closing. Ended up with updating this blog as I am not rajin to process the ER. While listening to the serenade by 혜성이 오빠 ㅋㅋ. 

Sigh. I just realized that I made a reckless actions. Before flew to Madinah, I back up my phone to clear the memory. I was in rush, perhaps, that I don't check the files as a whole. The file was crack and almost 80% photos and video in Beijing was all gone.  *Crying a river*

Need to consult anyone pro in the technology. Somehow I felt I save it somewhere else either in Ailee, office laptop or in the hardisk. 으이쿠야... 왜 제데로 초장 안 했냐 아인아? ㅠㅠ

So here's the deal. I went to Beijing last 16th October 2019 till 20th October 2019 for the Staff Excursion joined by ASSC, AMSB, ABGSG, AITS hosted by Amway China. 
Patah hati nak start write sebab gambar hilang.  TT

Kbye.

Simple is it? Just a word, but literally it kills the feeling as well as the conversation.

MY FIRST UMRAH : MADINAH AL - MUNAWARRAH [ PART 2 ]

الْحَمْدُ لِلَّهِ عَلَى كُلِّ حَالٍ. All praises and thanks only to Allah SWT in all circumstances. I am, hereby, today still having aaa... sort of mixed feelings especially disbelief. I still cannot believe that I already set my foot in both Tanah Haram Madinah and Makkah. Insyaallah, I will be having another travelogue in March. However, I assured you that all the excitement is long gone since I reached Makkah and Madinah. Knowing that no place even better than this 2 Tanah Haram. Though I traveled a lot, something is different with this both Tanah Haram. 
Well, talking about Tanah Haram, remind me of my Korean colleague, Jin Kim ( 김진). So literally he asked me a few questions that chocked me lol.

" Could you please enter the black box building ( Kaabah ) and take a picture inside of it? "
" Can I go there? "
" Why does it call as Tanah Haram? "
"Why this why that? "
"Yada yada yada etc "



Breathe in, Ain. haha. I always and I am trying my best in portraying a good 모습 ( examples) of Muslims in front of my Korean colleagues and friends. Considering this as my fardhu kifayah of letting them know about Islam. And I'm telling you that is not easy. A lot of effort is required. Thousands of explanation is needed. Knowledge and reading must be done so that you are not misleading them to the wrong teaching as taught by our beloved Rasulullah SAW. ( Peace be upon him) . I am not so good as well, still learning the Islamic teachings to share with them.

okay, back to the topic.

In Madinah Al - Munawarrah, we arrived around 3.30pm Saudi Time. Asked me lol. During the journey, I was slept all the way. The day ( read : a week ) before departure, I was extremely busy with Knowledge Transfer to both IBM and Jin Kim as he was my back up while I'm away, preparing the balance sheet reconciliation, settle the arising issue, responding to the tickets raised in SNOW as much as I can, managing the daily task and yada yada yada. Allah. Not to mentioned that I was sick and down with fever and severe coughing. Tapi tak rasa terbeban sebab I'm going to Makkah and Madinah. I ended up sleeping and just awake for the foods and solat. Upon touch down, a bit gelong sebab we departed on 10.30am Malaysia time, journey took 8 hours and 30 minutes yet we arrived at 3.30pm Saudi Time. And I still have more than 10 hours to go before night. 
Clearing out the immigration took around 1 hours. Luckily we went with Tabung Haji Travel so we was arranged to took the chartered flight. So risiko flight delay tu kurang. Memang ramai orang pergi dengan TH. One whole flight memang pergi dengan TH and required 10 buses of us all. Pergilah dengan TH. Service dia memang puas hati. For my first umrah's journey, Alhamdulillah memang puas hati. Setel dengan immigration, 10 buses awaits for us. Time taken from Prince Mohamad Bin AbdulAziz, Madinah Airport to our hotel, Saja al Madinah is around 20 minutes. Our mutawwif, Ustaz Munadi likes to shares the sirah and the information regarding the places we went through during the journey. Sampai hotel and having a dinner then solat dalam bilik. Tido lagi. Jet lagged teruk nau ahakss.

Front view of Nabawi Mosque, Gate 22 opposite to the Clock Tower

The next day, Mutawwifah brought us to Raudhah. From Saja Al Madinah hotel to Masjid Nabawi requires 5 minutes walk and the nearest gate is Gate 15. Sangat dekat and we can even see the Masjid's gate from our hotel. Masha Allah rezeki untuk dapat hotel dekat. For Raudhah's entrance we was divided by group of buses and separated by ladies and man. Mixed feeling again. Back in Malaysia, I've done a lot of reading and seek advised from those who went to Raudhah before hand. ( Will be sharing in the post special for Raudhah ) The moment we walk, I recite this zikr, asking all Allah SWT to ease our affairs to enter the Raudhah. 

 " رب يسر ولا تعسر رب تمم بالخير " “O Allah! Make it easy, and do not make it difficult.O Allah! Make it end well.”

Before entering the raudhah, awaits for our turn.

For Raudhah, Insyaallah I will make another post for it. All the tips that I get to know there and my experience entering the Raudhah, Insya Allah I will share it all. May it will be beneficial for those who is reading the post. 

The mutawiffah taught us to greet Rasulullah SAW, Saidina Abu Bakar As - Siddiq and Saidina Umar Al - Khattab. Wallahi, Sungguh Nur Ain Maisarah Phelps sangat sebak sepanjang perjalanan berjalan kaki dari hotel sehinggalah sampai ke Raudhah. Banyak pit stop for ladies before we could really enter the Raudhah. From the Door 25 also known as Uthman bin Affan's Door ( The only way to enter Raudhah for Muslimah/ Ladies ) until we reach my favourite Door, which is Bilal Bin Rabah Door. Why does Bilal's Door is my favourite ? Because beside this door is Makam Rasullullah. You will know ( supposedly )  if you're in Bilal's Door and you are close with / to Rasulullah SAW.  The moment I've saw the door lies our Beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW, my tears really cannot stop flowing. I never felt I really missed Rasulullah SAW until that moment. Allah Allah Allah sebak lagi while writing this. 

Masjid Nabawi's view during the Maghrib's azan

Masjid Nabawi's view after Isya's prayer time has ended

Tanah Haram bumi Madinah was really soothe me. Being there is giving me a break from the dunia's endless problem. Teringat Kak Masdiyana cakap,  " Kan best kalau takde masalah. Tapi ni dunia, masalah tak kan habis. Kat syurga je takde masalah " . This Tanah Haram was healing me, of course with Allah's permission. Berkat doa Rasulullah SAW and Allah's blessing, this place is giving me peace.  Subhanallah. I went to Makkah and Madinah when I was at the lowest point of my life. Allah is testing me with the losing of someone that I loves the most before I'm leaving Malaysia. Tapi bila sampai je sana, pijak je bumi Madinah, I know that this shall passed. My heart keep on reminding myself, as said in taklim by Ustaz Hannan Attaki, Allah has said in the Quran : Surah Al- Insyirah. 

credit : owner. Pic obtain from Google

I convinced myself. Allah is The Most Knowing and He knows better than me. I was down, I was in despair and my heart has fallen into pieces. Feeling being betrayed, left out and unwanted. My intention like, going to Makkah and Madinah, I wanted to spilled things out of my heart. 모두 다. 하나도 빠짐 없이 다 풀어줄 거야. 근데 Surprisingly, when I was there, I have a feeling like, "Hey Ain! It was not that bad though" . I'm having a slight thoughts over the problems that I'm having in Malaysia but I am not worried. Well at least not as much as I'm ( used to ) worried in Malaysia. Deep down I know I have non others but Allah. For sure, I know He loves me more that umi loves me. I'm convinced that my Rabb won't leave me when everyone else does. There, I let myself to put ultimate trust in Allah in all situation that seems to be impossible.  I whispered in Raudhah, pleading Allah to show me the way out for this mess.
" Ya Rabb. Tunjukkan hamba jalan keluar. Jangan biarkan hamba berseorangan walau sedetik pun " 

" Ya Rasulullah Ya Rasulullah Ya Rasulullah "



Sedih. Allah. There. In Tanah Haram, myself is learning to put things that out of my control into Allah's hands. I am learning to put doa and tawakkal before the effort. I told myself to put all the trust and hope upon Allah in the way Rasulullah SAW and sahabats puts their trust into Allah in the Uhud Battle. Trust me. Takkan sia-sia orang yang bersabar. Allah mesti bagi something pada kita for a reason. 
In Madinah, I've gotten  a lot "me-time" dengan Allah. Somehow Umi seems to be comfortable with Hakim ( my lil brother ) and I told Umi that I want to do the iktikaf in Masjid. She said okay. hehe. Maybe because of the distance between hotel and masjid was not so far, so she was not worried. But my best-friend Oka was overly worried. I told her, " Kita dekat Tanah Haram. Allah ada untuk jaga Ain" . Then baru case closed. Goodluck Noah for your mommy. HAHA

This the first page of Quran that I've read in Madinah.

I brought my own lovely Quran to Makkah and Madinah. Been using this Quran for almost 8 years and I bought that with Arwah Mek. ( Al- Fatihah. To Abah, Wan, Atok, and Tok Ayah as well ). Back then, I was doing my diploma in UiTM Merbok, Kedah, then brought to UiTM Puncak Perdana for Degree and now I'm using it while doing my Master in UiTM Shah Alam. My doa is may I can bring the Quran to United Kingdom in next 2 or 3 years for my PHD. Amin Amin Aaamin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

I think I'll wrap this post for now. In next post maybe I will be sharing about our ziarah to Jabal Uhud, Masjid Quba and other places around Madinah. I need to finish up the article reviews for IR 4.0 & Fraud and doing the reading for AMLA's assignment. 2 weeks to go before this semester is officially end. Till then, hang on Nur Ain Maisarah. Insya Allah, All is well.

May Allah ease our struggles.